On my side of the mountain here in Montana, I have found over the years that I have become really good at detaching at certain times from situations, people and sometimes life in general. Detaching is so much easier than facing the truth, working through situations or relationships, or taking the risk of being exposed for who you really are. After all, what if who you really are isn’t all that great? What if you are doing your best and it still isn’t good enough?
For now, I won’t try to expound on all the reasons why I think that I detach; only that it is something I recognize about myself and have decided to work on this year. Moving towards others always involves risk. I have made so many mistakes in relationships and circumstances in the past that I hesitate towards vulnerability and tend towards isolation.
But just for today, I am going to say “yes” to life. For today, I am going to try to enter into the hurt and pain of those around me. I am going to make that phone call that takes time and energy, and I am going to ask questions, even if they seem silly. I am going to share my real thoughts more often and I am going to try harder to identify with those around me. I am going to admit that I struggle and I am going to ask for help more readily.
I have no illusions about the steepness of the mountain in front of me. But one step at a time, I am going to make the climb. Anyone want to join me?
RomaLee
Good note RomaLee...I'll try to join you. Sounds like a plan. I mailed you for "food" today in the form of 3 CD's to listen and encourage you. Love you
ReplyDeleteRomaLee...my what a surprise for me as I thought you must be talking about me! So, yes, I am asking to please join you. One step at a time is all I can do and I can think of no other then you that I would like to make this climb with.
ReplyDeleteI will be in AZ Sunday thru Thursday with my sister....when I return I will get in contact with you hoping to find a spot next to you to start this new effort for me. Far to much time has passed since we last talked face to face; of which I truly enjoy our times together.
Warmly with hugs, Wanda
RomaLee,
ReplyDeleteI'll say "yes" to the climb and maybe the hill will not seem so steep. If one of us stumbles we'll catch each other, or we might just roll down the hill, laughing all the way!
Oh what fun we'll have!
Sharmon